at the peak of your own shoes.

For seventeen years, i have been in constant search for the one, the one thing that would stamp my heart with massive contentment. No, no, no. I'm not in search for love; I'm looking for more substantial bliss. I'm entirely honest when i say until now, I'm still wondering what an ordinary bloke like me doing in this topsy-turvy world.

Most people don't realize that you are your own worst adjudicator. I find myself probably the most uncool person in this universe (or maybe just here in the Philippines. hehe). Unlike the majority of kiddos in my generation, I'm not entirely convinced with the Orwellian newspeak categories of cool, totally cool, and awesome. I'm obsessed with Snakes and Ladders, dictionaries, and Philosophy, and my Usb used to have a name, which - lets be honest is quite geeky.

On Saturdays, you will most probably find me either at a bookstore trying to look smart, or at our university's sprawling cafeteria eating maruya. And as much as i would not like to reveal this, my lone purpose every time i got to El Centro (or C5 look-alike bars in Davao or Cdo) is to drink drupes shake.

But you wouldn't know how unexciting i am until you have (or live) with me. But no, really, I'm not totally saying I'm the worst roommate. I don't know, Nikki seems to love me still despite the constant nagging she receives every time she comes home early morning. Hahahaha. She just detest seeing me cooked up reading all day, rather than our usual food tripping. I'm not different, i just digress.

You see, i sometimes forget that aside from the constant learning, life also hand you over trials and merriment which very much espouses individuality and keeps you true to one's self.

A professor once told us in class that, "If you're a shoemaker, be the best shoemaker there is. Don't try to be a doctor." One important lesson I've learned from the past years is that whoever you are, or whatever state in life may be, you can do something sizable. Think for a second how beautiful that is. And hey, you can actually change things even how ordinary you are.

T.S Eliot once wrote, "There is a very large number of people in the world today who believe that all ills are fundamentally economic." The glitch is that we tend to confuse ourselves by treating reality based on what is plainly negotiated - engrossing too much on ideologies, and forgetting that people are starving.Ironically, we humans choose to focus our binoculars on the bigger problems, which are really impossible to be solved instantaneously. History has taught us again and again that there is no other way to get out of an excruciating mess than by starting with our own selves, by being the best shoemaker in the world.